Ive just lost my soul to a woman so heartless
29/9/09
1.24am


You left me drowning in my tears
and you wont save me anymore..
anymore...



Never had the guts or even the
intentions to hurt you this bad
like what uve just did to someone
uve once loved so much...


wished those heartbreaking words are
never found in ur dictionary.









They just dont understand
Forced to drift away
Faraway...........






Rendra Hairul

ah,im broken
it's been revealed...

i broke everything in me.
everything
EVERRRYTHING
EVERRRRRRTHHHHHING..


useless piece of people.


ouch

Just when i thought it would fade off
the cognition, there goes another challenge
which pulled myself further downwards.

It came crashing through
But I'll just have to close my eyes and hide...




downcast
sigh

16 hours of foam modeling with
deadly viruses all over in the studio
is hell shit scary experience of my entire
life in school..

Anyway,it's worth the while working on
these arduous elements:)


Heading off to TP to relieve this nightmare
with a short jam session with the dudes.
And i really need to fund for new pedals.sigh


Sleep-deprived

Im just learning how to dance in the rain


and wishing that someone could just save
me from this annoying anguish :(



worn out and picking it up even stronger

Sometimes i will just start to
wonder and realize how much
I have grown in terms of my
experiences on these phenomenon
that are never on my mind in the
past.

This is just the beginning of everything,

although it may seems contradicting at times....




holding on to this bitter line.

Sitting here wasted and wounded,
and tearing myself down
in this old SP clubhouse..

Just cant help myself out.
you just cant see the blood
that is bleeding in me.



'Take a look at my face
There's no price i wont pay
to say these words to you.'

"Panas panas sejuk"..

Been arrowed in the heart endlessly
noticed every single bits of movement.

I'll just stay on my root cause I Believe.

Whole body's burning gravely.
adui.

crushed till the end of eternity
Confusion aroused within me

The thermometer reads 38 degress.

Been sweating the whole day and now
I just need a deep rest at home.

And finally i could spent the whole day
seeking the never-ending cognitive content.




The warmth that cant be replace with.

No matter how wrenching it is for me to
feel the damages you gonna bring me..

I'll never want that heart back of mine returned
Cuz ive stolen urs and ran far away from here.

The First and probably the Last heart.


I dont own you but i own your
heart and it's mine Forever....




Rendra Hairul

Life is a quest for your dream..



Heed to the beats of affection ..



broke deeep inside.
knowing that soul
aint dare to face the sun.

Broken like an arrow and living through the rain.

Hang on there mum.
I could feel it too.
U'll always have me.
and ure not alone..


A tear worth saving
and valued till the end of time

Ouch,does is meant that i'll have to suffer and endure just because i drop it off? :(
clueless

I need to write this album out.
It hurts so much.


Ouch

Definitely gonna catch Addy's "Divine" and Mr Big's concert coming up!
:)

Breaking free from the notional chronological order.