I was sitting by the shores
all alone with my strings,
reminiscing through these
memories of the old...















I started to realize.....















I finally realized....













I did not treasure it well..














nor value it well..













I was so naive.VERY...





















psyche.













I deserve this...




















Ive been hurting myself.how foolish can that be?
silly..sigh




















A lesson learnt for myself,my experience..





















I dont want these impediments to spit me wounds anymore.
saket la.. :(
















but,it's too late..too deep..













it's over now......haiz













God
















Please guide me through this..



















I want a change.I want a switch.


















I want to appreciate all the beings
around me.













Open up myself...














I'll wait..I'll be strong....

My heart beats intensely
when i saw "Fizah Dear"
stated on the incoming
call alert. I felt as if I
was free from the sorrows
Ive been through
in my dreams. I answered
the call..The pacifying voice
held my dignity tightly, as if
I could have some warmth
with you right here with me..
I went looking around for the plate
that uve been wanting so badly,
searching like nobody else's
bussiness and i rushed my way
through the toilet and cleaned myself.
Feeling so much zealous in me i
called the number again
telling that im coming over.
I walked impatiently towards the
destination and tried to cool myself down
while waiting for ur presence.



Finally,there you came pacing
urself down the staircase with
a brown shirt and black tights.
My heart just could'nt take the sudden
strong pounding.
















and


















I passed it over.....................













*silence*

























I said............
"Would you give me a hug?"








































argh?k bye bye bye...







































...............................................................................you walked away








































































































you left...............................................













you really left..........................................................................

There has been full of ups and downs in this current life of mine..
Things changes throughout this experience im living whether its good
or bad..School has been tensed with so much assignments and projects.haizz..
I just got to endure this for another year.Perhaps, I should not waste this
3 yrs of poly with just the sake of a Diploma cert,but instead i should enjoy this
education which is probably among the RAREst courses one could experience..

I just cant deny that music has played a big big part of my life..I cant live without
music and i couldnt stop working on my dreams of becoming a professional musician
one day..And of course, there is so much obstructions which got myself struck through,
both physically and mentally throughout this highway im running. I believe that these
are all meant to be because there are definitely no short cuts to SUCCESS..


One biggest occurrence that has happen in my life is LOVE.
It got me thinking and haunting me down endlessly..
I just cant get away with this feeling..
Ive made a huge mistake of letting someone so special in my life
fall deep in me..:(


Im exhausted















im empty











im torn













im burnt













Fizah,,I still do love you so much..
I miss you
Please dont fade this love away...
please dont forget me..
please..
please..


Im here..
I'll wait..
I'll keep holding onto it..

Dear Fizah,


You have been the one..
You have pulled me deep within..
I aint gonna hate you like what
you've done to me..
Never..



Cuz the meaning of LOVE doesnt exist if
you dont belong in my heart...

You dont know how much I miss you more
than anything else do you Nurhafizah Binte Muhd Ramle?? :(

How much you mean alot to me??
How much ive longed for your presence
How much i looked upon you each and
everytime of my life..


Why are you forbidding me now.....
Why do you want to forget me....
Why...
why..
why